all that glitters

money is such a weird thing.  i remember when i used to just think of money as this thing that let me buy a pack of korean stationary and cute pencils or buy a t shirt or go out to eat and that’s it.  but now as i’m getting older it actually stresses me out, or at least it’s starting to.  i find myself going on bankofamerica.com and just staring at my bank statement.  i never used to think about how living in a room costs money, traveling in a car costs money, even little shit like toothpaste, shampoo, and water.  i don’t really know what my point is right now but i never used to think about how every little thing costs money because if i ran out of toothpaste my mom would just go to the store and replace it with another tube.  and now that i’m older and make some money and feel dumb asking my mom to buy little things like that i’m realizing how sheltered i was.  i wish there was some kind of program that logs in every dollar that make/spend so i can really see where everything is going.

i wish i could breathe out of my nose guhhh

i want a cyworld! lol.  it reminds me of those korean stationary/planner thingys everyone was obsessed with in the 90’s but in internet form!

guhhhhhhhhh i’m so tired still i don’t know why.  maybe it is a combination of not sleeping till 4 for a couple days straight cus of finals + LA yesterday + smoking and knocking out + waking up at 12pm iono but im still soooo tired and im just looking at my apt and i messed it up so bad like there’s piles of clothes n shit everywhere n i need to clean and pack even tho i don’t know what to pack because there’s gona be no room for it at home and i need to drive back to rancho and damn i’m tired

i just want to sleep and sleep and finally go to a tanning bed and buy extensions again and get those grey boots and somehow find the perfect pea coat and i need to go christmas shopping and fuck im tired and get a camera as a present to myself for christmas.  i wonder how my grades came out, my predictions are creative writing A, philosophy A-, women’s studies B.  next quarter is gonna be fucking hard i already know.  i want to live in a house and not an apt so i can walk around my room naked lol

should i just get extensions again???? this shit isn’t growing fast enough, like i honestly feel like the growth of my hair is just plateau-ing off at this sorta long-ish length sdlgjesi

get all shit done.  prepare/study for finals, work out everyday, save money.

this weekend was fucking exhausting.  now time to study for finals -_-